WHAT DOES HOME MEAN? : COLLECTION

HALF AND HALF

half and half half whole milk half cream half white half filipino two brown cows               in an empty field driving from up north green thumb for weed,   as an example blue boots velvet boots i could barely walk in packed flip flops for me to wear red string   the lovers nine of swords                    make sure you love them                     fuzzy’s taco shop in tempe bag of chips means i love you    spoiled milk and tea expired chai tea latte mix as a gift childhood donut shops in prescott on thunderbird on bell now end of the bus route    a place of power                     the ledge of a balcony                        trailer parks in downtown phoenix ron jon surf shop stickers on the back of a car   places of comfort don’t exist to me             absence of people stream of rocks i don’t care           tracing mistakes         alter your subconscious    fast fashion thrown into garbage bags             sentimental obsessions magazines from 2007 baskets of ads            waiting room   concrete stains mary’s dancing hands            i have seen the face of god and it was weeping    artificial waves molded ac units replaced in your old apartment signature required             fourteen days

‘til i’m home

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ATTENTION SPAN : the human attention span has decreased from 12 seconds to 8 seconds in last 18 years.

1.     splashes of acrylic paint on the studio floor

2.     semi-permanent stains are contradictory

3.     you could’ve left it in the mailbox

4.     four sheets in different ways, changes

5.     parking ticket anxiety in Tucson

6.     swallowing live goldfish in the name of god

7.     take off against the wind

8.     broken nails bend easier than glass

9.     if it’s all italicized, nothing is italicized

10.  you will find it one day, your confidence

11.  i’m so afraid that if i let you in like february

12.  hold out on me

1.     paint on the floor

2.     temporary stains

3.     leftover mailbox

4.     different sheets

5.     parking anxiety

6.     swallowing goldfish

7.     against the wind

8.     broken nails

9.     nothing is italicized

10.  your confidence

11.     like february

12.     hold out on me

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UNTITLED

i am the detected deliberation

an eve of the apocalypse

an agency of agony

built up like mildew on a picture frame

with drawn out maps

the word boundary written in all caps

i learned to climb your willpower in may

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UGLY SPIRAL

the lives of a tree laid out in spirals like an ugly shape filled with memory separated by minutes or miles as you feel the misery of the present creep up when you turn 20 years old you surrender feelings of regret regret regret red red red red red red lipstick dark lipstick sending pictures of a pretty sunset from different points of time is a version of distorted attachment

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CAMERON

in loving memory of:

cigarettes in the asphalt of a cemetery

a kid with my name barefoot on the highway

that semi-truck

weapons in the laundry basket

the red handle of a kitchen knife

pinecones that cut up my fingers

the moment of hesitation before a photograph

the way we think of each other at the same time

two years ago

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